some evenings I’m busy I sometimes I’m asleep so it passes on by the deep and utter grief I know God should take it away but maybe doesn’t want it to go away because that’s the sadness he feels I don’t know any answers I know that I’m having to manage my own body andContinue reading “every evening it always shows up”
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what have I not done I have been asked quite recently
I haven’t gotten to jump out of a airplane like I wanted to I’ve never been in a bouncy house not that I care to or on a trampoline except for those little ones they had made up for you to lose weight on. I did not get to see my daughter grow up I’veContinue reading “what have I not done I have been asked quite recently”
These hands..
these hands have done a many a thing have protected me have built have hold and held in love to no end they’ve been nervous they’ve been intricate in knowledge they were everything to me and nothing at all at one point we take advantage of what we have we take advantage of all theseContinue reading “These hands..”
things I’ll never do
I believed as I was going to get older with my partner but mostly it was my plan it was my dream my dreams probably got me in trouble in the first place probably watching too much TV as they say. so my ideas were I believed or thought I could do cheese for buyingContinue reading “things I’ll never do”
I lived to tell about it…
that’s all I’m here for now just a tool for God for others to look at learn from if they choose hear what they want and leave the rest. I’ve learned about this country’s hospice healthcare rules regulations separation segregations as we get older they separate people that love each other from each other youContinue reading “I lived to tell about it…”
what’s it like for CayC to be an artist.
I was born an artist. We all are I believe. life is an artist is a human and has been very difficult I was born differently abled. I have a chronic disease as you might know. Now for the first time I’m able to do art again just for a moment I reach my lookContinue reading “what’s it like for CayC to be an artist.”
trying to keep my insides in
I have to let people help me know. I’ve had strange people in faces touch me when I did not choose to be touched though I could not tell you that I choose not to be touched because I was trained. Just trying to keep my guts in right now try to get a fewContinue reading “trying to keep my insides in”
today
who and where I used to be who and what and how many people I’ve been in my life in just the 60 years I’ve been here life is sucks that’s what a friend says hold on to Jesus will be all right that’s what a song says. Do and have I ever felt peaceContinue reading “today”
Understanding
I’ve been learning to be human all my life is a child. Now having lived for five decades learning about this incurable disease that was diagnosed when I was 9 years old and the family of origin that wasn’t such a family at all and the many times I’ve been raped in and out ofContinue reading “Understanding”
a good day in February
as I walk this morning was able to get both shoes on. It was 5:00 a.m. in Hammond Louisiana and I was still tired it was going to be a very big day moving from Louisiana and having someone help me because of my disablement he was a kind man his name is Russell he’sContinue reading “a good day in February”