that’s all I’m here for now just a tool for God for others to look at learn from if they choose hear what they want and leave the rest. I’ve learned about this country’s hospice healthcare rules regulations separation segregations as we get older they separate people that love each other from each other you no longer can get taken care of by someone that you love because there’s renters greedy people evil demons as I have to look at them now because they only have cruelty and kindness and harm and pain and suffering do you know harm. and that’s my spiritual advisor says they’ll have theirs at some point and we bless them I wish them đź’“
Do no harm.
I’ve been evaluated tested hypnotized and digested integrated evaluated on yet still no one knows me or notice the human body Spirit and mind. I manage my body healthcare at this time. To the best of my ability and boy it’s shriveling as I speak God is in my legs and my toes and my fingers and I’m grateful I still have them my world has gotten very small and as you get older that’s what happens and no one has empathy no one wants to understand or look at you because hey they might see something important and it might change them. So that’s all I’m here for a tool for this whole hammers getting tired she don’t even have a hammer anymore. She’s built houses with his hands. God has built a great foundation within me and All around. I have walked many roads and traveled every byway Trailway scenic Way every interstate every highway travel 3 million miles in the Western hemisphere mostly with a dog that taught me quite a lot about life.
I wonder what’s going to get me out of pain next. What do I have to do every moment and every day in prayer 🙏 we hope everyday that we don’t wake up every moment that we don’t have to deal or make another decision or have to move another body part they’re so happy there’s so much work no one teaches you this and if they did they didn’t let me go to school there I didn’t get taken care of when I got the new hip I didn’t get taken care of. And now I think I should be taking care of that’s a quandary in itself if you’ve always taken care of others you wouldn’t expect somebody to be there for you now but they are not there’s no one not even a pet not even a beautiful small creature that loves just me in some way because I’ve got them trapped and I can make them food or give them mine but I’m not able to do that I can’t even have somebody live with me. These are what’s happening to the elderly in your country cuz it’s sure not my country I don’t want any part of it I’m trying to leave it and they won’t let me show I was born in American citizen and I’d surely love to leave this country for another but I can’t even get a mile down the road and if I do I ain’t coming back going to find me a ditch somewhere and drown myself it’s really easy you know you just keep swallowing water when you get to this place you think of everything more of it but I have all my life I knew I came into this world for truth love whatever and I found it it just wasn’t in the same place that I’d like it have been but I did find it I lied happy for that grateful for that truly so I don’t have to worry about anything at some point well this old lady is just yammering I love to tell you all that wonderful things I wanted to remember but since I I’ve been hitting the head way too many times been pushed down way too many times been harmed way too many times my heart broken way too many times that’s the only thing that I have now is this institution I’m in and the jail cell I have and the jailers that come in so. They call themselves home health they call themselves workers what about the clients you have clients day anywhere indigent day month for the elderly for the infirmed for the blind or the brain injured and the traumatized what does it take to make a nation fall and empathy rise for us all simple kindness very very simple kindness that’s all it takes people God bless you all maybe I’ll be here next time maybe I won’t hope so love and light to you all so be it and we’re going to publish this puppy before it wax out