some evenings I’m busy I sometimes I’m asleep so it passes on by the deep and utter grief I know God should take it away but maybe doesn’t want it to go away because that’s the sadness he feels I don’t know any answers I know that I’m having to manage my own body andContinue reading “every evening it always shows up”
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what have I not done I have been asked quite recently
I haven’t gotten to jump out of a airplane like I wanted to I’ve never been in a bouncy house not that I care to or on a trampoline except for those little ones they had made up for you to lose weight on. I did not get to see my daughter grow up I’veContinue reading “what have I not done I have been asked quite recently”
These hands..
these hands have done a many a thing have protected me have built have hold and held in love to no end they’ve been nervous they’ve been intricate in knowledge they were everything to me and nothing at all at one point we take advantage of what we have we take advantage of all theseContinue reading “These hands..”
things I’ll never do
I believed as I was going to get older with my partner but mostly it was my plan it was my dream my dreams probably got me in trouble in the first place probably watching too much TV as they say. so my ideas were I believed or thought I could do cheese for buyingContinue reading “things I’ll never do”
I lived to tell about it…
that’s all I’m here for now just a tool for God for others to look at learn from if they choose hear what they want and leave the rest. I’ve learned about this country’s hospice healthcare rules regulations separation segregations as we get older they separate people that love each other from each other youContinue reading “I lived to tell about it…”
praise God I’m trying
I’m trying to be 🥲 I am grateful. I’m grateful for the last year and learning so much about myself and others and how we treat each other in this world music my coping skills how I’ve lived this long with a disease that is just like ALS or cancer it just doesn’t kill youContinue reading “praise God I’m trying”
what’s it like for CayC to be an artist.
I was born an artist. We all are I believe. life is an artist is a human and has been very difficult I was born differently abled. I have a chronic disease as you might know. Now for the first time I’m able to do art again just for a moment I reach my lookContinue reading “what’s it like for CayC to be an artist.”
Understanding
I’ve been learning to be human all my life is a child. Now having lived for five decades learning about this incurable disease that was diagnosed when I was 9 years old and the family of origin that wasn’t such a family at all and the many times I’ve been raped in and out ofContinue reading “Understanding”
join the club
I watch TV way too much. Join the club I have been watching bullying and and the idea that you have to buy mattress firm or get beat up I’ve been watching. I’ve been watching what Burger King says oh the deal needs to be confirmed before you get it on commercials and now amazinglyContinue reading “join the club”
gratitude
for the grace of God has watched over me as I’ve been homeless these past several years. I have slept no dumpsters with bugs. I have been in homeless shelters that are not homeless shelters at all they are cots that I cannot get down to as I am disabled so I sleep in theContinue reading “gratitude”