These hands..

these hands have done a many a thing have protected me have built have hold and held in love to no end they’ve been nervous they’ve been intricate in knowledge they were everything to me and nothing at all at one point we take advantage of what we have we take advantage of all these parts God give us at the beginning. We know not know the worth and the love that a hand can bring we do know the pain we know so much of the pain of body parts of people slapping and hurting and punching and threatening and manipulating and harming in ways that are atrociously unimaginable in this here United States of America have these hands built enough houses for those that have needed have they helped enough and caused enough shelter I suppose have I loved myself enough with these hands no not I don’t believe so I don’t believe my hands can’t help me anymore where sometimes yes I can hold myself and Rock and I feel better and yes the joy and effortlessness of being able to use a finger or hand at any moment is a great joy to my life I have made miniature baskets I have parasail I have climb titanissa with two worst legs I can imagine but you know at the time they made it they climbed a pyramid and they climbed inside the pyramid and saw a beautiful Jade tiger the size of a wolf it was huge and it was it was just found and s**** in each of them by drilling down into the core and you know the amazing things that these hands have drawn and painted and tried to transition from pain to Joy or at least relief I have given so much relief with these hands and so much pain but I believe I have made it to the other side where I’ve given more relief than pain as a massage therapist as a christ-like walker in life I believed in washing feet and oiling I became a minister in order to help relieve pain of others you know Christ said that we can do these things and more I’ve seen people walk on water and he’ll scoliosis if not for a moment at least at least we love those words I’m going to come back to that for the moment it was healed for a second the scoliosis was healed do I know alternative healing and what can save and relieve people but instead they want to charge high prices for it and invasive procedures that cause more harm than good and give you drugs that cause you more harm than good I would love to be able to hand the world what I know in a basket and tied in a bow but you know it you just don’t live i you become it you become another better piece of yourself by making choices that you didn’t think you’d ever make I’m an adventurous some call careless some call spontaneous delightful fun to watch at times as I’ve been told woman that came to this planet to help others and to show love and I have shown so much love I hardly have any left for me so now is the time that I have to show up for myself and I try real hard but as the body weakens and my abilities cheapen cuz a lot of people want to say sorry about it you know the worst thing in the world you can do is say sorry if United States could stop those words hey we might change the whole freaking world who knows I know I talked long and lengthy I just wanted to show that these hands of mine the crippled and claws now and inability and totally different and sort of scary at times they definitely make me cry when I look at them so I am my own phantom of the Opera when it comes to that I’ve learned so much and just tired and a bow and give it to y’all and make the world change and maybe that’s totally narcissistic or maybe it’s exactly what mother Teresa wanted to do or you know Saint Francis maybe we’re just trying to find the best parts of ourselves so we can go on to the next world clean cleaner than we got here cuz I definitely know that there was way too many secrets and there was way too many lies and there’s way too much pain in this world unless you United States for anyone to come through I think we keep acting in a play that no longer is moving forward it’s standing still so till somebody does something and we’ll find out what that is or when it is or how it is how the truth can come out and we can no longer celebrate an awful thing called Thanksgiving we can no longer celebrate a Hallmark tradition that they comprised so you can create a damaged world by buying things when you have enough we need to improve on what we have and not look for more we need to stop making cars and just improve on the ones we have and pay them off and build fences or regions or hell you know walls like they want and if you did it right then they could be even studio apartments for some of us hahaha againt so happy happy day happy Sabbath and happy September we have the wonderful Autumn solstice here happening this week and celebrate with lots of wonderful great Autumn for foods I love blessings to you all